i havent written in here in a  while . .  but anyways ive been thinking about this guy JO who i went out with a long time ago and of how much i've missed him .  . i think about him alot and i cant seem to get him out of my head . . hes always there even when im with miguel and im with nathan all i can think about was him and how sweet he is  and i can't believe i was so mean

hmm well i just read a certain sum1's Blog . . . and there is a certain part of me that i will always love . . . we have so many memories . . . and i wouldn't trade them in for anything . . . even if it did end this way . . . i'm still greatful for the times we had together . . . but the truth is . . . all of that faded . . . i couldn't wait around just to see whether you wanted to be with me or not . . . and yes we did fight a lot . . . but when we broke up . . . all those promises came crashing down and all those dreams were just shattered . . . and i am sorry i lied . . . i didn't say i wanted you out  of my life . . . it'd be kool if we could still talk but i dun't really think you want that . . . *sigh* well what im trying to say is that . . . this whole break up thing made me confused and the whole thing with us is just something that i dun't like . . . the together but not thing . . . i still love your family . .  i always will . ..  i plan to actually still come over and visit tita Vicki sumtime . . . that is if that's ok with you

just if you ever want to talk im here and if you hate me . . . then i REALLY wish i could change that, but frankly i can't . . .  all i can say to you is to keep on believing in yourself . . . and i always had faith that you could do anything you put your mind too . .. don't listen to what other people say . . . dunt let others out you down . . .and remember . .  you will always be in my heart . . . take care